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Trees sway in a soft dance with the grass and wind, giving a rhythmic motion to the clothes that barely hug her small frame. Her hair faintly kissing her cheeks and lips in which is twisted in a sweet yet sinister smile.
One foot in front of the other, my heart pounds in my ears as I approach the woman.
I return the smile, just like that and everything rushes to my head.
Dreams of the future, the high, the escape of the past...I see it, I want it, I need to forget....
The wind picks up pace as I get closer, through the leaves and debris  her smile widens.
Blue skies that was once filled with life of birds turn grey and clouded as I reach out for her...
My friend, my love, my life...
One more step...
Crackling of falling trees fill my ears as the grass flattens with the color brown.
I feel myself falling...falling through the ice beneath my feet and into black, blinding, and freeing water.
Hypothermia quickly getting to me. I can feel my heart turn into stone.
I float, paralyzed, to my nightmares.
With one final heartbeat, I look up to her peering down at me as I drift into the darkness.
Even though you left me to die, I will always want you...Need you...and love you.
I know it's horrible but I haven't written anything in a long time. //should give up, right?//

Oh well, this was from a dream I had a while back. It's better in my head than as a little story. 
Asdfghjkl by Nerd-Mode-Activate
My new pet c: She's nameless at the moment.
shes the sweetest thing!
  • Mood: Anger
Just writing it down cause it helps greatly.......

Yes, I have lots of problems but this one needs its own journal...
At my mother's house, yay???
No, sure I love spending time with my mom but she has a little drunk companion here too.
This man drinks/smokes from the moment he wakes up till he passes out.
Whatever, I don't judge, or try to. I'm polite as always, shy at the most. 
"Is your daughter retarded? She can't talk?"
Me: I beg your pardon, that was incredibly rude...
Mom: -LAUGHS- She's just shy 

That's a nice first impression there, buddy...Okay, whatever, I'm going to forgive and forget.
"Why is she so damn pale??? Why does she wear so much Goddamn black? Those piercings are horrible on you, are you goth? You're not Pansexual, you don't even know what you even like. Why do you squint like that? Why do you not talk? It's like talking to a wall. God hates gays. -LOOKS DOWN MY DAMN SHIRT AS I'M WORKING OUT//" 

Nearly biting my tongue off here then "She's so goddamn fat, look at that ass...Girl, you're so fat..."
And just like any person would do to a bully I snapped...after I yelled my mom just laughed as if she didn't even give a shit....Thanks...It's nice to know what you think of me...

Cool down
Hide it
Laugh with them

Later I get a phone call but that's a differnt story...broke my thumb or sprained, whatever...Stops having a panic attack and sobbing. 

Feeling better!
-He wakes up- 
Oh great... 

My mother and I were in bed ready to rest. My day of going into panic attack after panic attack mentally drained me. 
-He blasts up the radio and starts singing loud with it-
It's fine, I close my eyes but starts hearing him whispering things about MY SLEEPING MOTHER. 
I turn toward her just to see if he was touching her...Nope, he was hovering over her and close to her face...
That was it, he's pushed as far as he can push. I was shaking and blacking out with rage. I screamed and yelled, taking his fingers that was on my mom's hips and twisted them...Sadly, I didn't break anything but he jumped up with surprise for sure..........and you know what? My mother wakes up...Tells ME to calm down. No, not her "friend" that waited for us to sleep to touch her. Me. 
After threatening the asshole to stay away from my mother and I (mom is laughing cause they're "like brother and sister") and putting my pocket knife opened and next to me, she fell asleep as if nothing is wrong....I stayed up....I'm awake at 4AM cause I don't trust him. After the whole night having him scream and fight with me...He touched my mom again, I punched his hand away. 

I just don't understand, he was touching/hovering above her when he assumed we were asleep and I get told I'm over reacting....AFTER I hear him talking dirty about my mom......That's fucking nice....
  • Mood: Daily Needs
I miss roleplaying .-.

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KittySib Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2015
Thanks for the fave!:D
Ka-ren Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for the fav )
Serodous Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2014  Student Filmographer
Thank you for the favourite on "Bleed Into Existence" :)
MrBlubbs3252 Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2014
Happy Holiday's!
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Canis44 Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2014  Student Writer
Thanks for adding my poem, 7:00AM, to your favorites. :)
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BeelzenefGamzeeFan Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2014
Thanks for the llama
DylanSeto Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2014  Student Artist

Just wanted to thank you for the fave!

Also, since I'm currently focusing on music, I was wondering if you'd be interested in supporting me in that endeavor of mine?

If you are, I can link you to where you can find that stuff!
transe Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2014   General Artist
Hi, thank you for the fave! :aww:
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FreyjaMeili Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the favorite on my journal!!^_^!!
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NarnMindWalker Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the watch! :)
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NarnMindWalker Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
I like your webcam :) 
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poseidonSchild Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the favorite!!
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MrBlubbs3252 Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2014
Thank u for the watch
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MrBlubbs3252 Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2014
Thank you soooooooo much for the llama
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Aelfwynn88 Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks a bunch for the :+fav:! Awesome webcam btw! xD
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